its so easy to get caught up in the world
its so easy to get caught up in the world
this has always been a struggle for me. i always want to be the best, i always want to do what everyone is doing, i always want to be the best at what everyone is doing
its just too easy to get caught up in the world
You see everyone around you in the world and they seem to be having fun. Thats my trap. I always want to be having FUN. And theres a danger in that. Everyone around seems to be having more fun than me it seems. Events in uni like Vet camp, so much fun to be had, but dangerous drunken fun. Its a hedonistic lifestyle that i catch glimpses of and sometimes desire, but that i know better now than to get myself into. Longings that God wisely reminds me to ignore. Thank God for good christian friends and a good support network like OCF and Subi to keep tabs on me and whom i know will never allow me to fall back into the trap that is the world and its worldly desires.
You always hear pple saying that vet is a competitive course. But you never really realise what they mean till you're in the course and in with the creme de la creme of WA's top students and brillant international students. Everything is a race in vet, even more now in 2nd year. It's always a case of who gets the better mark, who is 'kiasu' enough (they call it passion for the subject..bah..) to get as much experience as they can, who can take part in the most events.
I hate to admit it but i have gotten caught up in all of that too.
Just looking around at my friends. So many of them have worked through the holidays. Some have had vet nurse duties in vet clinics, others have helped out in research projects cutting open and sewing close sheep. So many of my classmates have steady part time jobs within the industry. I, on the other hand, spent only some of last semester looking for a job as a vet nurse, and even then i didnt get it.
I'm seriously considering getting a vet nurse job this sem. It would prob take up my holidays, some evenings and possibly some weekends. But i'm hesitating upon the advice of some friends in the upper years. They say that the workload in 2nd year 1st sem might be abit too heavy for a job. Now i'm stuck. To look for a job or not? there is an opening in South street Vet that sounds promising. I want the money and most importantly, the experience. How issit that i have no idea how to even suture when my friends have already assisted in spays??
It's not just the job, theres so much i wanna do in uni itself that i dont even know if i have the time. I'm already in the Murdoch Uni Wildlife Association, but now i wannt join the Equine Interest Group. These groups have the most interesting events, talks and opportunities. But it also means more commitment. More precious time, of which i have so little of. This weekend MUWA has this thing going on when u go down south to help trap raptors.. IMAGINE THAT! how cool is that!?! But once again, i cant go. I dont have the time. Commitments at home, to my dog, and at church and to OCF. I guess thats the difference between an international student and a local.
Ive got so much on my plate this year. Crossroads, OCF, school, MUWA, church. And theres so much more i want: a job, EIG.
The problem with me is that i don't know when to stop.
Look out for me if you know me, cos apparently i cant even look out for myself.
this has always been a struggle for me. i always want to be the best, i always want to do what everyone is doing, i always want to be the best at what everyone is doing
its just too easy to get caught up in the world
You see everyone around you in the world and they seem to be having fun. Thats my trap. I always want to be having FUN. And theres a danger in that. Everyone around seems to be having more fun than me it seems. Events in uni like Vet camp, so much fun to be had, but dangerous drunken fun. Its a hedonistic lifestyle that i catch glimpses of and sometimes desire, but that i know better now than to get myself into. Longings that God wisely reminds me to ignore. Thank God for good christian friends and a good support network like OCF and Subi to keep tabs on me and whom i know will never allow me to fall back into the trap that is the world and its worldly desires.
You always hear pple saying that vet is a competitive course. But you never really realise what they mean till you're in the course and in with the creme de la creme of WA's top students and brillant international students. Everything is a race in vet, even more now in 2nd year. It's always a case of who gets the better mark, who is 'kiasu' enough (they call it passion for the subject..bah..) to get as much experience as they can, who can take part in the most events.
I hate to admit it but i have gotten caught up in all of that too.
Just looking around at my friends. So many of them have worked through the holidays. Some have had vet nurse duties in vet clinics, others have helped out in research projects cutting open and sewing close sheep. So many of my classmates have steady part time jobs within the industry. I, on the other hand, spent only some of last semester looking for a job as a vet nurse, and even then i didnt get it.
I'm seriously considering getting a vet nurse job this sem. It would prob take up my holidays, some evenings and possibly some weekends. But i'm hesitating upon the advice of some friends in the upper years. They say that the workload in 2nd year 1st sem might be abit too heavy for a job. Now i'm stuck. To look for a job or not? there is an opening in South street Vet that sounds promising. I want the money and most importantly, the experience. How issit that i have no idea how to even suture when my friends have already assisted in spays??
It's not just the job, theres so much i wanna do in uni itself that i dont even know if i have the time. I'm already in the Murdoch Uni Wildlife Association, but now i wannt join the Equine Interest Group. These groups have the most interesting events, talks and opportunities. But it also means more commitment. More precious time, of which i have so little of. This weekend MUWA has this thing going on when u go down south to help trap raptors.. IMAGINE THAT! how cool is that!?! But once again, i cant go. I dont have the time. Commitments at home, to my dog, and at church and to OCF. I guess thats the difference between an international student and a local.
Ive got so much on my plate this year. Crossroads, OCF, school, MUWA, church. And theres so much more i want: a job, EIG.
The problem with me is that i don't know when to stop.
Look out for me if you know me, cos apparently i cant even look out for myself.
posted by ydnil @ 1:51 AM
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1 Comments:
At 9:26 AM,
CameraDawktor said…
Stay strong my friend, when I was a child I thought that serving God would be an easy road, but the nature of our fleshly desires makes it impossible to be easy. Sometimes the biggest person standing in our way of doing what is right is ourselves. Stay strong..God Bless!
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